utopia

I began reading Utopia again. I was reading through the Clarence Miller's introduction, and stopped at the following: After all, dialogue is symbolic of open-mindedness, humility, and inquiry. It made me think of how I don't speak, or don't like to speak, and how I'd rather not talk than talk. It also made me think of how Jay doesn't respond when he and my sister are fighting, and how we are similar -- all the fights I've had in the past with people I love, the way I often stood or sat or laid there unmoving, eyes focused on one point, concentrating on hardening myself.